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Hyderabad is soo big and soo rich, its crazy. People own like 4 malls and there are so many Ford Endeavours to be seen. It's a bustiling city with KFC n all.

I feel like I am nothing in front of them- a mere nothing. It is great to see a jeweller all well dressed and taking care of some real business. It adds meaning to life.

I reached today at 3AM. Our flight was diverted to Ahmedabad, since we did not get permission to land and were running low on fuel. And they didnt give us anything to eat even! Way to go SpiceJet. Then, when we landed in Mumbai, we were so fast that the pilots had to apply a lot of reverse thrust. We could see smoke coming out of the right turbine just beside us. I wonder what was that all about.

I really missed Natasha...well...it was quite boring other the fact that i got to learn a lot. Infact a got to learn a lot more than I do in the factory- all days combined. I am really happy how my relationship with Natasha is- so gentle and peaceful...maybe.

I am done with Spanish and I am thinking of doing the 3rd level too...and my Japanese is headed nowhere and I am thinking of joining the classes up at the Indo-Japanese Association. I can't give up now! I am still on a desperate hunt for someone who will teach me maths.

Accounts tuts with Ruch n Divya are a bit dull and boring. They are all such a studious lot- but I wonder how smart. And thats what matters. Its nice to see Ruch so busy. Its gonna make her so experienced.

Natasha must be working in the rains...stupid girl! I hope the trains will be working! Rs.250 a day will just get you about to nowhere. I hope she realises this and more. Ofcourse I'm worried.

Pirates of the Carribean 2 is out in the US. I wonder when it comes here. I like it because of its theme and the acting...and I just love the ride back at Disneyland...all foggy and mysterious with a nice comic touch.

The market rose be 300 points yesterday...and I have no knowledge to understand whats happening and I have lost simply too much. Im jus gonna wait n watch a bit.

I still find myself in this war inside of me. I dont talk to my dad much- I'm just fed up of it. I don't talk to my mom- she never gets anything. All she does is worries. What can my brother say even if I tell him anything?

Where am I headed to? If I work with uncle, it becomes like a favour you know- a big favour on me...and I don't like it one bit. Yes, our family relationships our close- but still- it is a damn favour- I am his servant, in a sense. How will I get out there on my own? I want to stand up on my feet by myself- not hold a weight and then be pulled up. It's just annoying that way...That's why I feel like going away and making my life. Money is very very important- but it's not everything. What will be the use of being rich if I will still feel that way when I grow up? To me, my freedom is more important. But so is my career and business. I have no technical knowledge about the field yet. I'm just like Neha in a way...just juggling around things...

I get irritated easily, I don't talk properly to people...I don't know what to do. I am ok but sometimes I just get moodswings and I can't sleep in the night- no matter how tired I am.

I have no clue what I am going to do.

People tell me that I am so confused in life- but I tell them its the opposite. I sort off have my path and have an idea as to what is to be done. But maybe they are right in the end. I make an "S" instead of just going straight like "I". Its just turmoil turmoil turmoil. Nothing makes sense.

I am reading "Art for Beginners" and One line which really hit me is:

"Romantic art, finally, is linked to painting, music and poetry as art forms which depart from the physical and move towards the spiritual. At the end of the day, art's function is limited : art, like everything else, must be replaced by philosophy as the peak of "pure consciousness". Thus Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel talked of the end of art."

I think I could have a nice chat with Hegel sometime...

I just got done with "A Tour of the Subatomic Zoo" which is a great book for a laymen like you and me. Out subatomic world is way more complex than Electrons, Protons and Neutrons and extremely senseless and confusing. This book has helped me a lot in satiating my curiosity about the subject.