Wednesday, June 28, 2006

By Mrs Shirish Pai

Our feet tread on upon unknown
And dangerous pathways evermore.
Wave after blinded wave is shattered
Stormily upon the shore.
Light glows alive again. Again
It mingles with the dark of night.
Our earthen hands burn out, and then
Again in flames they are alight.
Everything is fully known,
And everything is clear to see.
And the wound that's born to bleed
Bleeds on forever, faithfully.
There is a battle sometimes, where
Defeat is destined as the end.
Some experiences are meant
To taste, then just to waste and spend.
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I have hereby decided to use our blog as a diary. I think that is exactly the purpose of it. Too bad you all can't find it in you to do the same. Figure the poem out., if you think you get it, let me know why I've put it up.
Love,
Natasha.

Monday, June 26, 2006

Ra, my way.

Will it? Won't it? Well, it did. We did go to Ra, we, being Gunjan(thank you very much), Neha, Ruch, Aksh(woo hoo) et moi. I don't think I've enjoyed dancing soo much, except Israel maybe. And all thanks to Akshaya!!! He is soo much fun!!! He is just mad, MAD!!!
And the madness thus started...
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21st June, 2006. At 18:30hrs.
I am by my comp, in my pjs with a satisfied feeling. Satisfied because the night's plan was finally fixed. We were going. My cellphone rings... An unknown number, "Hello, Natasha?" It was an unknown, husky voice, "Akshaya here, what are you wearing?"
"Why are you talking like that?"
"Calling from office... Forget that... What are you wearing?"
"Pyjamas. Why?", I wonder suspiciously what he's upto.
"Peabrain!!! What will you be wearing in the evening?"
"Skirt, T'shirt... Why?"
Sighs, "What Colour?"
"Oh! Pink... Why?"
"I'm your date naa... We have to match. You ask too many questions. Gotta go, bye"
"But..." He's already hungup. He's such a crazy fellow! I love that about him.
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At 22:30 hrs. One act play.
Gunjan, Ruch & I have already reached Phoenix. None of the others had. We decide to go for a drive, get lost, the others reach and claim us late. Typical. The hugs & introductions follow.
Mihir: Let's get in?
We get in, with stamps on our hands. It has a typically club-effect to it. It's rather small though. There are low tables and white sofas or chairs on three sides of the room, all of which are occupied by some group or couple. On the side opposite the enterance is the bar- Packed. We cross the dance floor, which obviously enough is right in the center, to reach the loo-corner. No one is dancing.
There is a big projection screen on the side of the enterance on which ESPN is playin. Argetnina would be playing Netherlands that night.
Akshaya: Natasha, I don't mind dancing even now.
Me: Gunjan, guys, let's dance?
Ruchika: Later.
I look at Aksh, shrug, and make my I-don't-know-but-I-really-want-to-dance face.
We get a seat somewhere, sit together, and take a few pics.
Akshaya: Natasha, I havn't come here to sit. I know you want to dance, be yourself. You're not going to be seeing these people ever again, neither am I. C'mon!!! You have to.
I try and pull Neha... He was right, I do want to dance... And I'm not the kind to let something as lack of interesting poeple stop me. I got up and started.
First it's only Aksh and me. A little conscious of myself, I don't let go completely of myself. Aksh does. I'm thoroughly impressed. I start losing myself. Ruchika sees the joy on my face and shows me a thumbs-up. I smile at her and try to get her to join us.
Another group adds to the dance floor, then Ruch and Neha gain a little of the confidence and join us. A few pictures of amazingly cute Aksh and me are taken, then of all of us...
Gunjan, Mihir and his elder bro join us. Akshaya and I, by now, are dancin like no one can see us... He starts pushing his right side against my left, I respond back be pushing my left and laugh. Ruch and Neha laugh too... He suddenly pushes really hard and I'm automatically pushed to the side!!! We all laugh like crazy. I remember that he'd mentioned that he loves Shakira's "Hips don't lie"
Me: I hope they play "hips don't lie"!!!
Akshaya: Let's go ask them to!!!
We walk towards the DJ, Aksh speaks to him, and we join the gang again. He's told that they would play in the next half hour. Perfect, because that would be when he'd have to leave. I wanted to dance with him at that song specifically.
So... we're dancing, and it's almost time for him to leave, so then he says that he'll have to leave in a bit, so he starts dancing with me again... The whole butt thing happens... he faces his butt towards me, bends down, and sticks his butt out and does the whole this-is-my-Marc thing!!! I burst into giggles, I can see laughing faces on everyone else too... so everyone's expecting something from me now... Before I know it, my hand moves towareds his butt and gives it one nice spank!!! Haha!!! He jumps up and turns around.
Akshaya: My turn now, turn around!!!

We both laugh like maniacs!!!
He's such a darling!!! He jiggys it with everyone. Ruch, Neha(who he's never met, btw) & Chotu, not an ounce of embarassment.
He decides it's time for him to leave, and then they start palyin "Hips don't lie". We both start dancing with each other again, I gain center once and shake my booty resulting loud hoots from my ever-faithful friends. Akshaya starts dancing with me again. We're spanking our respective butts now(we didn't moon just a cute emoticon), gaining amused smiles from friends and onlookers, alike. All happy to see us happy. Some jealous. Which made us happier!!! We again start dancing with each other, he spins me around and the usual... and unfortunately the song ends. Hugs, goodbyes...
I keep mentionsing to Ruch how I'm going to miss him, only to see her face letting me know that perhaps she'll miss him more. She says it then.
I don't feel like letting the rest of the evening go to waste. I face my new dance-floor-burning-partner, Ruchika, and let the music sink into me!!!
The whole evening goes this way, switching partners... Going MAD!!!
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Ruchika Likes Mihir's elder Bro!!! Woo hoo!!! I didn't notice how cute he was... But I did on his orkut profile, btw... yup, he's GOOD!!! Way to go Ruch!!! he seems like a good person too, I hope he is and if he is, I hope things go well!!!
Thank you for being so cool that night, and letting loose with me!!! We really do rock!!! Marry me!!!

Love,
Natasha.

Friday, June 23, 2006

My boring boyfriend.

I don't know if I told you guys this, but I was not supposed to see Kkrish. Harsh asked me not to. He said, "If I tell you not to watch the movie, will you not?" I agreed. I have to admit, it DID upset me, but if it meant soo much to him, it didn't hurt me too much. So anyhow, I avoided discussion about the same with Harsh, because it would upset me. So I told him that I'll be Ok as long as we didn't discuss it, but that I'll have a lot of people to answer. He asked me what I would tell them, being such a great liar, it took me just that second to figure out what I would say, "I'm testing my will power, seeing if I can go without seeing a Hrithik movie..." and I know people would believe me, I am the kind to do such things.
Anyhow, as we all know, Harsh is going to Hyderabad for a week, and I'm busy tomorrow and the day after. Unfortunately I had workshop just today, and we had only today to meet before him leaving. He said that I'd have to meet him at 3 sharp cause he'd have to leave early, my workshop went on till 3 at Wilsons. It was highly improbable that I'd manage, but I told him I'll try and leave early. To worsen things, the co-ordinater interviews were to be held today, meaning that most of the girls would ahve to be in college by 3, meaning only like 2-3 of us to handle things. Anyhow, I manage to slip out by 2:15.
Harsh seemed to be losing it over th phone, and all I told him was that it's ok, and that i'll come to meet him even if it was only for 5 mins, and he seemed to be getting worse. He said he had to get to office real fast.
So I reach Bandra station, and he comes there in a rik which we continue in. Now, I have no idea where we were headed, so I ask him. He tries to change the subject by, "How was college?" I calmly reply, and then ask if we were harded to his house, getting a reply in the affirmative. He got a call, and I got busy with my cell not noticing the route the rik was taking. When i bothered to notice, we were in the Gaiety-Galaxy lane... I'm wondering if Harsh's noticed that the Rik wala's bought us somewhere else.. but he seems to be content. I remind him that we're in the wrong place, and he chides me and ushers me out. My mind still confused, I continue questioning him, to which he keeps giving me vague replies with sardonic smiles. I think, OK, he's got soem movie in his head, and he definitely doesn't have to go to work!!! I'm quite amused that he's managed to keep it for so long... And it was going perfect!!! I hadn't guessed a damn thing!!! Everytime I have to do something, I soo require to talk about it!!! I just can't keep it in. I thought it would have been Fanaa. I remembered that whole thing with Aksh having passes and all... So I just go along. We climb up the stairs to the balcony area, I was already soo stunned, I couldn't react. I was just smiling. On entering the theater, we notice the movie had already started. While looking for our seats, I noticed a familiar half-bald head of the head master of Hrithik in "Koi mil gaya..." I breathed in, "This is Krrish..." I mention to him, wondering if he got into the wrong theater by mistake. He smiled, "I know..."
I was soo happy!!!
We laughed throughout the bloody movie. It's a pretty OK movie, if you like the "koi mil gaya..." kind. But Hrithik's fun, as is Nassirudin Shah. The chick's annoying, as is the story. It'll be like an Ok movie. 3 stars, perhaps.
This one's for Harsh. Thank you. You guys don't know what all he did for this, he spoke to my mum, booked first day tix, (great seats, last row), made sure I got there on time!!! It really means a lot to me, not only all this, but also that You came for the movie with me, I know you didn't like it, but you did. You knew you wouldn't like it, but you still did. For ME. I feel soo special. I was so stunned at the moment, the whole evening, infact, that I just couldn't think him properly. I can't believe you'd torture yourself for me soo much!!! I really love you.
Oh, one more thing. My college friend, Divya, was going for the screening of it, with the stars!!! And she could get one for me, I refused!!! Flatly. I'm so glad I did!!!
You made my day, more than just made it. And not because it was Krrish or whatever... But because you thought it. I never think of you as boring, and it was just a passing comment Aksh made, and he didn't even know the situation. Anyhow, I don't care what others think. I love you for who you are. Thank you for being you.
Love,
Natasha, your angel.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

And it's begun...

I had a dream, a dream that I would run...
A dream that I would sweat, and not know it
the rains handling that.
My body temperature wouldn't know if to rise
Or fall, and hence remain constant.
Dreams remained Dreams.
No football in the rains, No swimming.
How we have to sacrifice.
It's a risk I'm taking.
Giving up a dream, for another.
I hope it's worth it.
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College has started at full force. Time is getting lesser, and work pressure increasing. We already conducted the experiment once on people from our college, we may be doing Wilson's. We specifically require male responses, considering that we have only female responses. It's becoming too gender specific. Can we get HR too? Will people be interested? I have to keep studying, I really do need to. I can't have the laid-back attitude this year. I hope I can work hard. That's all I want this year, to be able to work hard. I need to give lesser time to the net, music and television. Worse, to you guys, maybe. Not too less. But it will have to reduce. It's important for the apartment.
Oi!!! I got great news!!! See, Sophia's has this showing called "Glimpses" every year. It's specifically for freshers. Each club in college puts up a little showing to show what their club does every year. And this year it's going to be held on the 15th of July. Now, those who are fimiliar with the culture of Frace, even a little bit, ought to know that that's the republic day of France!!! And we as representatives of the French Club have tons to do!!! We've decided to have a kind of parade with the French colours, and we'll even make pom-poms(my idea btw) with the coulors and do a cheer-kind-of-dance. Cool naa? I know!!! So anyhow, we're really excited about it!!! Pray it turens out well!!!
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Why do I not see others writing? Is there some problem? I must leave now, considering we're going partying tonight. I'll miss you Harsh.... and incase there's slow dancing, I'll have to be happy with being in Akshaya's arms instead of yours.
I can't wait to DANCE!!! I'm sooo gonna burn the dance floor!!! WE are soo gonna burn the dance floor!!! Go us!!!
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Peace out dudettes!!! ... and dude.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Navigation Bar

Hey people!

I hope you have tons of fun at Ra. And please click pictures!

Do you all use the Navigation bar on the Blog? Any website requests? What do you all think?

Love you!

Sunday, June 18, 2006

I sent an sms to my dad at 1:38AM

I have started feeling like I can't talk to you anymore about things. I know what you are going to say. Sometimes, I get the feeling that you don't know what is right for me...But who does? Even I don't... I just feel like im running away from life. Ihardly find myself satisfied or joyful. Im doing everything but Golf. Im really sorry about it- but i find it too boring without any company- in the crazy damp heat of mumbai to fight with the ball boy and wait for the passovers. I made friends but they left.

I feel like no one can help me. I don know whome to go to. I sincerely hope you understand me.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Harsh Becomes Divya

I have been sick lately, actually I think its seasonal cause I get this every year at this time- when the rains start.

I am home all the time as I can't go out in the sun. i feel lazy and lethargic. And I sleep LOTS!!!

My Japanese is not going too well- It's come to a level where I need to be more intense with it. i need to work harder, stress on listening.

My Spanish- well, I don't know Spanish. My vocabulary is really poor. I have to put a lot of studying there.

I cannot find teachers for Mandarin or Mathematics...

I might have to move to Mumbai Central.I'll come to know next month.

Congrats Ruch for becoming GEMS President! It will look hot standing in your resume! I'm really proud of you! I think I will have to write a poem on you...

Monday, June 12, 2006

...et tu Brutus?

I'm not too sure why that's the title of my entry. I just felt like putting it though. I'll get back to what I've actually come here for.
I've been working, as you all are now aware of. I know that it is not looked upon as somehting that's not to be too proud of, and I understand where you are coming from if you disagree with what I'm doing. But you have o see it from my side of the table. I need the money. No, it's not just for the "stupid shirts", Divya, but I want to make that trip when Jared comes down, and I'm too sure my dad will be able to finance me then. I'm already going to Mtheran with my Jewish friends at the end of this month, which my dad will be giving me cash for, but I don't knwo if he'll be ready to pay for another. But I really want to go. So, I can finance myself!!!
Away from all the serious-serious stuff, work is soo much fun!!! I'm getting along real well with Champ, my supervisor, and the others. I hope my team will be the same next week too. Some different place though, not Globus. Firstly, there's no one of the age limit that we require, secondly, they don't like fillinf up forms!!! We need to do 150 per day!!! It's crazy... We all go mad trying to get people to fill in the forms. We do what we call, "Jhol" if we can't get enough names and stuff. I learned from the experienced. Mallika Shae, Nikhil Gonzalves, and whatsoever you want!!!
I'll tell you'll more, later.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

hey im back on de blog!!!!!!!!

hey ppl!!!!!!
i kno its really beeen long since ive posted anythin on de blog.......wel my sincere apology 4 dat...........(not really.........hehehe).well ders nuin much happenin at de moment n exactly y i wasnt wriin,but den i realised i shud write sumthin atleast........so here it is..................
well v all met up 2day after a long time(ALL OF US!!!!!!!) n am so glad v did though i kno ruch n sneha cud just not tolerate de heat...........but since v all wanted 2 go 2 mochas once atleast 2gather.........v thought of doin it 2day,be4 every1's coll began................
ooooooooohhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! de most interestin n shokin part..................ive been readin "the da vinci code" very sincerely now a days.ive almost finished half de book n its pretty interestin n u'll wont believe..........i now feel like watchin de movie as well!!!!!! but onie after finishin wid de book.
u guys shud be proud of me,i suddenly got a n interest in readin BOOKS!!!!
well dats it 4 now............
byeeeeeeeeeee cya n tc .....................

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Udupi Pizza.

The stay over's coming around soon.
So, we'll order udupi pizza... I guess I'm ok with it... I mean whats the biggie right?
What about, "Wherever you will go" as our song? Or is it, "Ain't no mountain high enough"? I'm cool with either.
Ok. U'm really not feeling upto this... Sorry... I'll do this tomorrow.
Forgive me, I'm in this weird mood. I'm going to type out lines from songs right now. Don't ask me why I'm like this, I really don't know. I swear to let you know when I realise.
"When you are with me,
I'm free... I'm careless... I believe
Above all the others, we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My Sacrifice..."
"And I don't want the world to see me,
Coz I don't think that they'll understand,
And when everything's meant to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am."
That's it for now. As Harsh would say, "cheap lyrics..." Lol.
Love you guys.
A lot.
I'm NOT drunk. I didn't even drink.
Thank you for caring. It means a lot.
This is why, "The Calling". Feel it with me.

"So lately, been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quiet how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you till all of time

If I could, then I would
I'll go whever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go"